i knw....

gues i use tht a lot whn i talk...
but how much do i realy knw?? good qtion..

i dnt knw wats happenin in a month frm now.. i dnt knw wat wil happen in d 1st week of jan... i dnt knw wats goin to happen to me in 2 mnths frm nw... if these r baseless qtions coz they r related to d future... chuck these...
i dnt knw wat i want frm life... frm my frnds.. frm my parents... i dnt knw wat i want frm me! and d few times i have known wat i realy want.. whn i start xpectin sumthng.. u knw wat happens next! whn did anyone evr get wat they xpected??!!
they say u dont get wat u xpect..only wat u deserve...
i hv a confession to make.. im scared wil i ever deserve anythng?... i am a GOD fearing person,nd im afraid i hv offended him more no of times than it is allowd... dont ask me how..im not puttin up my list of sins on the internet! ;-)
I DNT KNW!!
they say dont worry...it wil all fall into place..evrythng wil be ok.. thngs wil happen... i dont thnk so.. i am jus shit scared!
its not tht i havent done my part... yes i workd hard to get sumthng whch seems like a gud thng (again im not sure if ths is xactly wat i want..but as of now ts d best option i hv!)... so i'll jus wait for the results!
maybe sum1 mite say these r groundless fears...but im scared abt the thngs whch happen to me w/o me havin done anythng to get such results... whn frnds bitch abt me behind my bk... whn they deceive u whn all u did ws trust thm.. whn u get manipulated by sum1 for their selfish interests.. whn luvd ones walk away..whn all u wantd ws to be luvd back... cant remenber wat did i do to deserve all ths nd more...

i dnt knw....